Whole Again

Every night she is staring at the very same mirror, smeared with strangers staring back. She can’t find nor recognize herself anymore, and so one night, she stops looking.

Every night her soul is floating in the space between her face and this estranged reflection. She hears the walls murmuring, admiring the touch of her body, while she feels weighed down by an inexplicable mess.

Every night grey clouds gather in her eyes, and wait for that thought to pass by her mind and pierce them through, giving birth to that same salty river, suspended between the skies.

Every night she sees the same stranger, hiding somewhere in her trapped crowd, staring back, smiling to her in malice, latching onto her floating, yet leashed soul.

Blinded by the laughter of a thousand strangers, her body explodes into a million little pieces, and each piece gazes at her soul as it soars away, the higher it soars, the lighter each piece feels.

Yesterday I saw the stars dance under the moonlit canopy. Did she pass by, and set a heavenly melody to the night? I outstretched my hand to touch the sky, and I swear that it felt like touching her lips. My fingertips traced her cosmic wounds, each seamed with a different moonlight.

They told me the story of a stranger that once smothered her soul, and left her a mess, gasping for a breath. They described to me how she prowled for each and every piece of her, how she rebuilt this home, and summoned back her soul.

There’s a flicker in her eyes today, there’s a magic in the way she move, she’s grown into poem, while all that she has ever been was a blank page; one to be written upon.

I could feel her soul is raging, for her wounds are leaking of fairydust. I could feel her eyes are burning, for she’s setting this place on fire.

I am wearing her smile today, the one that tells the world that she, who was once empty and broken, have become whole again.


I would like to dedicate this post to a friend of mine, Miss Sobana as a shoutout and a token of my gratitude for inspiring me to become a better version of myself. Her thoughts dance in my mind like planets revolve around a sun and every time I try to write her down, supernovae explode inside my head. Pay attention to how I become starry-eyed when I say her name and the way her dimples glow like half moon when she smile. She’s made up entirely of brushstrokes and doesn’t even know she’s an art and when she looks at you that way, it colours your world and you understand she’s an artist too. Sometimes I wonder where she come from. She’s too beautiful to be of this world, too human to be anything else. She’s the tallest tree, she’s an erupting volcano, she’s viscous and violent, she’s a beautiful conflict of nature. She’s melancholy wrapped in beautiful metaphors and her smile is so exquisite; I guess God painted it with the same colours and brush that he painted the sunset with. I wonder how many poems remain unwritten because there is not enough ink to describe her beauty

If you’re dealing with depression or even medically diagnosed, go check out her blog that aims to spread awareness about depression and suicide. She writes so beautifully that sometimes I wonder how old her soul is. She’s an inexplicable embodiment of beauty and I think it’s beautiful the way she carries herself. She’s an unfinished masterpiece with an elegant mind, a fragile heart, an indomitable soul. I strongly suggest you to follow her because her words will touch you gently, like hands that can heal the deepest wounds. The other day, I was at a gallery and an artist told me that art is meant to be shared and naturally I started talking about her and if you are paying attention, somewhere in the middle of it all you will realize I am speaking poetry, in its rawest form. It would mean a lot to me if you could check out her blog. Please give it a read and show her some love. 

Here you go: Scarsandsilence

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101 Comments Add yours

  1. Beautiful words, beautiful tribute 🌹

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  2. JGomez says:

    So beautiful and well written tribute.

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  3. bbeyes4 says:

    So beautifully written!

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  4. I have read this three times. I am astounded. I can feel every emotion… see every picture painted with your elegant words. It is absolutely… unbelievably… remarkable.

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  5. Wow! You write so beautiful. I love reading your posts ❤ The each description is touching 💙

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  7. You are a gifted writer. Thank you for visiting our site opening the way for me to find yours. I will continue following yours!

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  8. Wow ❤ I like this blog a lot!

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  9. lghiggins says:

    She sounds like an unforgettable person who has touched your soul in life changing ways.

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  10. A lovely tribute! I was already a follower and now I am following you as well 🙂

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  11. L. M. B. says:

    I feel so tiny… and yet I’m immense!

    Liked by 5 people

  12. eurobrat says:

    A beautiful story of survival and resilience.

    Liked by 5 people

  13. Inese Poga Art plus Life says:

    Good read for sure!

    Liked by 4 people

  14. tziviaeadler says:

    alone in the crowd
    who is that stranger in the mirror?

    make a cliche new again

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  15. Thanks for a wonderful poem and the intro to a good blog.

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  16. She and your words – equally beautiful 🙂

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  17. Alfahadeen says:

    I can totally understand what kind of a role Miss Sobana might have had in your life. It’s an ethereal feeling to have someone like her in your life. Don’t let her go.

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  18. uma parmar says:

    So beautiful and lovely words, expressed by you. Specially it’s connect me with feelings because after so long I came back to here and just read your post first, and it put smile on my face.

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  19. What a stunning piece! Awesome blog and thanks for the follow. Looking forward to reading more from you,

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  20. Hajira. says:

    Wow! I am astounded by the beauty of this piece. Please, continue to write such beautiful writings 😍

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  21. A deep and meaningful poem – lovely

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  22. A beautiful tribute – haunting and sublime. It’s incredible how the written word can express so profoundly human emotion.

    Liked by 4 people

  23. MultidimensionalHE says:

    Your love for her and poetry is remarkable.

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  24. Piyali says:

    Beautifully written

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  25. Good morning Mugilan Raju!

    Congratulations on the excellent post, this is very beautiful. I really liked it.

    Abs,

    Fransisco Davi
    Collaborator CPF Consultation Website

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  26. Very nice… beautifully written.

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  27. Aqsa ❤ says:

    This is absolutely beautiful and so meaningful; I once had a time in my life where I felt exactly like this. The words that you described as trying to pick up the lost pieces of ourselves for we thought that there were no other choices or paths left to roam or choose – your poetry is breathtaking. I really love your style of writing and how your poetry has a beauty in which even if I am reading over a screen on my phone, is breathed to life with passion. So glad I found your blog 😊

    Aqsa ❤

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  28. It gave me goosebumps. Your words to my eyes were what music is to my ears. (:

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  29. Trayee says:

    Wow! Just amazing. You are blessed with the coining of words.

    Liked by 3 people

  30. fatimah748 says:

    My eyes began to swell whilst reading this, so raw, so beautiful.

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  31. Mara Prose says:

    I’m going to reblog!! This is excellent!!

    Liked by 3 people

  32. Vernon says:

    I can relate to the process of feeling whole again. Great piece of work.

    Liked by 3 people

  33. Ipuna Black says:

    What a beautiful tribute and poem.

    Liked by 3 people

  34. Joss says:

    Wow! You use beautiful imagery… what a lovely piece ❤

    Liked by 3 people

  35. Patty J says:

    Your writing is so jarring it demands attention and immersion. Wow!

    Liked by 3 people

  36. Mr. Mel says:

    An artist with words, as I read I see each stroke and watch as you paint, bringing words to life.

    Liked by 3 people

  37. Shoba Menon says:

    Wow… Very beautiful!

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  38. Heart touching 🌷

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  39. Julia says:

    Beautiful words!

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  40. I’m so glad you “found me.” I’m returning your follow and happy to be doing so. Your poetry is exquisite!

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  41. idkalafolle says:

    It’s so beautiful! Good choice of words

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  42. 9tankz says:

    Damn. Are you even aware how lucky you are to have experienced an emotion like this. And how lucky we are to read a poem inspired by such an emotion.
    You sir, have my respects.

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  43. aglentina says:

    This is amazing 👏🏼

    Liked by 3 people

  44. Sneha Modi says:

    Beautifully written

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  45. Great work! Beautiful words!

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  46. KNIGHT says:

    A tribute couldn’t be more lovely and moving 👍👏

    Liked by 4 people

  47. Beautiful… when you consider someone very important in your life words role automatically. Wonderful and great tribute to your friend! 🙂

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  48. JL says:

    Enjoyed reading your post.

    Liked by 3 people

  49. wanderwolf says:

    Woah. This is beautiful! I haven’t felt goosebumps reading something in a while, the moment of recognition is awesome.

    Liked by 4 people

  50. hannahtk says:

    I think you like her, just a little bit. Beautifully written

    Liked by 3 people

  51. I have just started following you and already became a fan! Good job!!👏👏👏

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  52. ITunu says:

    This is sooooooooo beautiful.

    Liked by 3 people

  53. blindloveweb says:

    Omg!!! I regret not knowing you earlier… not reading this great stuff earlier.

    Liked by 3 people

  54. L.E. Hunt says:

    I’ve never been able to put this feeling into words, but you’ve done it. Wow. Well done.

    Liked by 4 people

  55. Amit Atri says:

    Wonderfully weaved!

    Liked by 3 people

  56. doubledacres says:

    Amazing talent. You are very gifted. Looking forward to reading more of your work.

    Liked by 3 people

  57. imposterwriter says:

    What a beautiful tribute!

    Liked by 3 people

  58. Janice Wald says:

    973 likes?! Congratulations on building a blog with so many engaged readers. I wanted to thank you for following my blog Reflections. I haven’t blogged there in two years. I blog at http://mostlyblogging.com. I’d be honored if you followed me over there.
    I know people here. Aquileana, for example.
    I have looked at a few of your posts. The girl in the mirror– stranger staring back. Intense writing! You moved me. See you at mostlyblogging.com.
    Janice

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  59. rules says:

    Made for good reading. Surely ‘art is meant to be shared’, I believe it cannot reach completeness until shared!

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  60. Beautiful and haunting. Thank you for your interest in my blog and I look forward to following yours.

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  61. Avi Pranish says:

    Beautifully and honestly written!

    Liked by 4 people

  62. Daisy Daniel says:

    The way you described the person you are dedicating this to is so freaking beautiful man. I can’t even put into words how beautiful that was! ♥️

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  63. “Every night she is staring at the very same mirror, smeared with strangers staring back. She can’t find nor recognize herself anymore, and so one night, she stops looking.”

    This made me absolutely fall in love with this poem. It’s really beautifully written and was a pleasure to read.

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  64. Unicorn_reet says:

    Beautiful words 😍😍

    Liked by 4 people

  65. Manu K says:

    This poem is amazing. One day I wish to have the same way with words that you do. Thank you for following my blog. You are the first one. I hope to improve my writing through it.

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  66. This is so beautiful I am speechless

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  67. Thank you mugi (: for making me whole again

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  68. Canuck Carl says:

    Checked out the link to the blog “Beautiful Kind of Thoughts”. Excellent

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  69. yumyumlecta says:

    I rarely say this but I don’t know why I didn’t follow you before. Your writing is exactly what I like. Keep up the good work and thank you also for following my work. I love the melancholy, ultra-visual and magical element in your poetry.

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  70. I really like this poem, it reminds me of times past.

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  71. Corinna says:

    Wonderful! Greetings from Berlin 😊 – Corinna

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  72. Lalitha says:

    The woman you write about in the poem was me years ago. I battle with depression and moments of deep depths and highs on a regular basis. Your words come out so raw and piercing that it left me astounded. It felt like I was staring at my old self all over again. And the last few words also reiterates the fact there is always light at the end of the darkest of shadows. This is very inspiring for people like me who needs inspiration from time to time to keep on believing that life is worth living despite all the odds stacked against us. Thank you!

    P.S. Thank you for following me.

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  73. KANIKA says:

    Simply wow…… Wow!

    Liked by 3 people

  74. This is soooo raw and uncensored!

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  75. Sikiladi says:

    Beautifully written. Loved reading it. Wounds related to fairydust – what a wonderful expression given.

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  76. davidyochim says:

    That was beautifully written.

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  77. This is a very touching and beautiful poem and blog post!😊 ❤️

    Liked by 3 people

  78. Avyukta says:

    Amazingly woven words. Your piece of art unveiled in my mind, the story of the unwilling prostitute who dreams of freedom and enacts it in her reverie.

    Liked by 1 person

  79. Kelly soares says:

    Muito lindo mesmo este poema.

    “This poem is very beautiful indeed.”

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